PerreaoultAlways the same horrible thing
So many obsticals to just producing work. One of which is financial, maybe the first.
Not that we would think that.
As a child you don't think that you can't make art because you are making it with out crayons or paper.., You can draw with your hands in the dirt.
You don't think of it out living you till later.
(Imagine it. your life's work
Callapsing like a sky scraper
At the hands
Of another,
whom. couldn't care less
Well of course they care.
Pleasure.
We are texting.
Me: My sleep cycle is wrecked
Crashed at 8am woke at 2
Her: came home and we got pranked by friends with these balloons sheesh.
Do you mean you went to bed at 8am?
Why?
Me: Oh so fun😊
Late night movies
Her: How come you up so late?
Me: back on a day time 😁 schedule.
Your front door looks like my front door, minus the balloons.
Her: We're in midtown, not far from maple.
This day feels long.
Me:
7:11am I'm in line at the Wegmans All the way at the rear of the building.
Her: Yikes
Better that than what happened at the ShopRite
Every one comes in at once and crowds around the Aisles while you trying to get Can of pasta sauce LOL
Me: I try to avoid people while in the store, but folks be like, getting all up under you Cause they gotta get that can of crow-lips now!
I'm trying to make more space in the studio because I'm in production mode.
Problem is I have a lot of Art from the in-law.
He passed Some years ago.
Then his fam started dumping all His art on us.
He was bitter
Didn't finish a lot of work.
Her:
It's good that you're accomplishing a
Lot.
I've been meaning to write an essay for a grad Program for a while and I've been lazy and procrastinating.
Sigh.
Sometimes I get so disappointed with domesticity
Like is this What everyday will be? Wake up, work, pay bills, clean home ect?
I'm in a mood
Sorry
Me: Hate to say yes but especially if you have kids
Wish I could escape but don't hate kids
Argh! Ingrid showed me video of myself I'm older than Earth and just as fat.
Can't die so much to do
Her: Sigh
That's a very bleak last statement.
Me: just means I gotta watch my health
When my kids were born I had dreads was healthy, except for the ❤️. 18 years ago...
Her: every-time "my guy", Mentions wanting children, my heart drops.
It's A partly selfish reason I don't see kids in my future (as of right now)
I don't want to be responsible for another human(s)
I want to live the life I want and kids are just not flexible
Me: sorry I brought it up. Kids are a pain. Time sucking career - crushing, and as teens , ungreatful, opinionated asses.
Except if you need experience for your late Art career.😉
Her: 😂
What's ironic is that We were Someone's
" career crusher, time sucking, ungreatful decision at some point
Me: Thinking, "if only I could Throw away the Inlaw stuff"
It's like someone had a bunch of junk, and sent it to you Then said, "if you don't keep it I'll die"
Feeling selfish, I need space
Her: Can you donate the in-laws art?
Me: Art work is parishable, if no one perceives it as valuable it gets destroyed.
Even he began to create art based on the perception of trash, as if it was Worthless.
It's actually a viable art theary
But he began to disregard the care of his
Work. His art rotted from fungus and exposure much of it left unfinished and in
Disarray.